First and foremost, thank you to everybody who sent a message and expressed an interest in this little journey that I have begun.  I'm glad that the post was able to convey how anxious I was and many of you sent words of encouragement... a special thank you to LesBellas22, who was such a sweetheart to not only offer tips and advice on how to proceed, but she was kind enough to point out a stupid typo I made!  Thanks so much LesBellas22... I owe you one ... I also appreciate the slap on the ass to just get out there and have some fun! 
You can't really do research without data, right?  So let's start with some numbers ... I received 63 messages in my in box ... any comments on the actual post are included and reflected in that number.  Of those 63, half didn't get a response, the approach was basically ... add me dadada... which I warned about in the original post.  

Of the remaining 30, there were a number that expressed that they felt the same and were also trying to figure this out (and we could figure it out together... hehehe) ... but if you read my post carefully, you will know that that is not what I am looking for either ... I need someone to guide me through it ... not have a good time trying to figure it out with ... that's available to any of us here ... that's just not what I'm looking for (at least at this time). 
Time out for a disclaimer real quick... If that was your intro and our conversation evolved beyond that (you know who you are), don't worry, I don't hold that intro against you ... it is an easy one!  😉  and you've said something that's definitely been on my mind that I'm looking forward to exploring, I hope. 
Alright ... where were we?  Oh, the responses ... there are 4 now that are still getting active responses via dm that I am still considering to add in app... then we have 6 that were convincing enough to get an add in app, which got them a little bit easier access to chat.  Of those 6, one deleted me for reasons I still don't understand ... and we had made it to audio ... so I'm a little perplexed ... but removing yourself ultimately saved me from having to make a decision and as a sub, I like that.  So, thank you. 
Over the past year I had a lot of time to learn and read about the whole d&s scene... and I read my share of kinky books just to try and wrap my head around all the tingles I was getting from all this research.  Well, the conversation quickly escalated with 1 dom as he was using all the terms and words that I'd learned from my extensive reading ... and I felt like he was willing to guide and help me navigate all the big emotions that come with submitting ... anyway.. I had my first training session last night and i am not here to kiss and tell... suffice it to say I am even more convinced I'm a sub ... remember this is research people!!  😉  We have yet to fully debrief on my homework assignment, and to finalize the parameters and guidelines but I'm sure that he would support my decision to create this post. 
I've decided I'm going to provide occasional updates here as I learn things on this journey.  Hopefully to benefit those that expressed to me that they may be in the same boat.  I think I'm pretty good at articulating what I think and how I feel and some people aren't as blessed ... so if you don't mind the long read, (as you see, if you made it this far) you're welcome to come along.
I've also come to realize that in order for the research to be credible, ideally there needs to be an open exchange of ideas and feedback (that's where your comments and feedback will be greatly appreciated. )  AND more than one hypothesis to the theory.  So I am hoping to find at least a few more perspectives from a few more doms.   My current dom at this time is allowing me to chat freely as we have not finalized the guidelines to our play and I intend to negotiate it so that the experiment does not just turn into an extended playdate... that is not the objective here.
I respect the privacy of those I choose to play with and I expect the same in return.  I will bolt if you freak me out.  If we have played, whether you are in the experiment or not ... I'd love to know what you think ... and to the person who compared me to the golden ticket floating down a river ... I look forward to chatting further ... u may understand the depths of my need to submit.
Ok ... that's it for now ... love where I'm at ... looking forward to learning more.